Allowing myself time when editing for the first time

You may have caught my sneak peek preview of me recording RimWorld, and right now I’m in the process of editing it.
The goal is to create some decent bite-size episodes of about 30min, and then share it with you all over time. I spent a whole week with every night recording, and it was kind of intense. That said, recording makes RimWorld run a lot slower, so I didn’t necessarily get very far each night.

I could see that there was an eagerness within myself to rush to get something out, but then I realize that in order for me to continue enjoying and getting back into editing I need to let myself take the time it needs.
For a few reasons:
1. I’m learning a new editing software, kdenlive. The last one I’ve been familiar with, before CapCut on the phone in recent months, was Avid about 17 years ago when I was at school studying film and editing. It’s been a while.
2. I’m getting used to the different tools available within that editing software, and have big chunks of video to log.
3. I want to just enjoy the process.

I realize that this means it’ll take y’all a bit longer to actually get something, but hopefully I can provide some sneak-peaks and some insightful texts like this in the meanwhile.

If it’s any consolation I will most likely be editing one episode at the time, and then schedule them or publish them as they are done. If I finish a lot in a short time span, I will of course try to space them out at some decent interval.

Thank you for your patience with me as I struggle with my health, and mental health levels over the past few years. I’m glad you’re here, and that we’re embarking on a new journey and chapter together!


If you’re enjoying reading these little articles or stories, consider throwing some support my way: via ko-fi or alternatives. I’m currently trying to cover my student loan debt payments and that will be my goal going forward too.

Long Time No See

This blog is receiving a revival as it’s remained unused after I moved hosts last year (and a half year before that).

This blog is receiving a revival as it’s remained unused after I moved hosts last year (and a half year before that).

The game related updates have mainly been happening on my Patreon, because they became woven in with some rewards. Now I will however publish them here instead, and add links to the Patreon (or additionally), maybe share drafts first, or at least let people know what’s coming

Basically this year I’ve decided to myself, and together with some others, that I’ll be focusing on writing. This will come in a few different ways, one is going to be on here. The goal is to continue my journey of games, another year of experiences as I continue finishing off some steam games, while still allowing myself to buy the occasional new game.

That said, we are still streaming, and some games will be streamed as well! And yes, I said we, because it’s still me and Loa(Games) that share a space together on Twitch where we are our silly selves most of the time, and enjoy playing off each other.

What happened to kinkymal?

Well, I got the chance to change my name to maloki on Twitch, so I took that opportunity, even if me and Loa are still streaming together on that channel. However, this blog will still be kinkymal, as well as the YouTube which is also currently inactive.

There’s some ideas about what Loa will be contributing, but he has asked me to not share it until he’s gotten a little bit further with the process, but I got to say that I’m excited about it.

How often can we expect reviews?

Well, there wont be any reviews more often than we actually finish the games, but the goal right now will be to be able to publish something at least bi-weekly on this blog. And if I complete games in between I’m likely to space out the reviews, or take extra time with them. Right now I have 2 games that I’ve completed in 2019, which are Subnautica and >observer_ both of which I am aiming to write a review of.

If you are looking to support my gaming addiction, and the writing of these reviews I would like to direct you to my $5 Patreon sponsor tier. I have recently changed the tiers on there to be sponsorships to better represent how I may not be able to give anything back until I’m healthier. However, the suggestions I’ve made in this post would indicate that maybe I’m doing better, I just hope it sticks.

And I think that’s it for today. If you got any questions, feel free to reach out to me on social media and we can have a chat. Take care, and thank you for sticking with me.


Year of Experiences: A Resolution

During the fall I found myself in a situation where I was gaming a lot, but not really experiencing a lot. I would be playing games which were more leaning towards sandbox games, and having no real end, unless you made yourself one. Examples of this is Guild Wars 2, RimWorld, and Sims 3. Don’t get me wrong, I love all these games, but I felt stuck, and like I wasn’t getting anywhere.

So, I began a new journey. Slowly, and as a process, I would ween off the sandbox games and venture into entirely new experiences. I played through Seasons After Fall, which is a magical game. I even ended up finishing all the achievements in my first run. I played Drop Alive, after it was mentioned in new releases on the Co-optional Podcast, a short platformer game. And I spent a good while playing the Banner Saga, after a recommendation from djWHEAT.

As I was getting closer to the new year, I wanted to expand on this a little bit. I am not only an avid gamer, but I also read a lot (2015, 44 books; 2016, 33 books). Loving games and books, I end up buying way too much especially if it’s on sale. Or if it’s in the local thrift shop, which also happens to be across the street (come home with a stack for books, 5-6, and only having spent $2.50 was a great deal I just couldn’t resist, over and over). One day I came home with a book it turned out I already owned. It was time to stop.

Having piled up some games, and books, it is time to actually experience them. So my resolution for 2017 is to play through as many games as I can, do achievements as I feel I want to/have energy for, and not spend any more money on games. I already own a steam controller, and I have a library of 176 games (33 are in my live-in boyfriends library). I am completely set for this year!

They say that the best resolutions are when you have some kind of accountability, in my case it will be the following tweets,

which were also brought up during the Twitch Weekly broadcast yesterday.

But to expand on this, I will be streaming my journey and update the blog on a monthly basis with which games I’ve been playing through. Do you want to join me?
and if you are interested in the progress with reading books, you can follow my other blog.